Today I welcome my dear friend and fellow encourager, Crystal Twaddell to #ChosenandWorthy. Her heart is beautiful and her words powerful. The words she writes today are just for you.
It is to anyone stepping into a new season or a long awaited dream and instead of relishing the moment, you find yourself feeling like an imposter …
Imposter! The label rang loud and clear through my brain, and in its heels, what quickly followed were declarations that sent my spirit spiraling.
I shouldn’t be here.
I’m not qualified.
I don’t deserve this.
They are going to find me out.
It’s going to all go south.
I’m an imposter!
For several months, the sabotaging missiles bombarded my thoughts and emotions faster than the saner side of my mind could process.
A month earlier, I had finished two significant job interviews in the same week. One was a challenging position in a growing 6,000+ member mega-church and another a position in higher education at a Christian university. Both were amazing opportunities … for someone else.
So when I received the call to hire from both within days of each other, I was astounded. And that’s the moment the all-too-familiar seeds of unworthy to be chosen sank beneath the soil of my heart and began to take root.When did the seeds of unworthy-to-be-chosen take root in your life? #ChosenandWorthy #identity @CrystalTwaddell Click To Tweet
Identity lies are never respecters of age. And just because we deal with them when we’re younger doesn’t mean they’ve given up the fight. Often they return with a vengeance; attacking in the midst of a blessing we so desperately hope for, until we find ourselves questioning if it’s really meant for us.
Sometimes slipping back into the labels that lies stamp on our heart is as easy as slipping into our favorite comfy sweatpants.
Until it’s not.
Years ago, when pursuing my degree, I dreamed of positions like these. But when I became a mother, I made the conscious and satisfying choice to tuck away my schooling and be a full-time mother to my three children. It’s a decision I’ve never regretted and would never change.
But I’ve also long been conscious of the fact that as the children grew older, one day I would choose to work full-time. And I feared being labeled as irrelevant and unqualified. I feared the world would be unaccepting of me and punish me for choosing a different path.
I failed to realize that my identity has nothing to do with the world and everything to do with God.
Now, many years later, I realize that I also believed I was unworthy of such a blessing from God. Deep down, a little lie took root that said I had not chosen wisely. I had become too comfortable in my own label of being “just” a mom, even though I fought tooth and nail to never allow anyone else to place this label over me.
The truth is that we can become so content with the labels we place upon ourselves, that we have great difficulty removing them even when God takes a black Sharpie and writes a new label…a new identity.
If we’re not aware of our self-imposed labels, we risk missing out on the plans God is working out for us.
We can misread them, cast them off or explain them away instead of embracing them as God moving to prosper and give hope. And we can actually sabotage a very good piece to our life’s puzzle.Now is the time to stop self-sabotaging! #ChosenandWorthy #identity #Imposter @crystaltwaddell Click To Tweet
For months, I kept waiting for someone to call me out and tell me I was unqualified. I expected to hit a roadblock at almost every corner because I declared myself an imposter. With every meeting, project or presentation, I expected so much less than what I received.
But it never happened. Any shameful outcome I conjured up under the darkness of my labels never came to fruition.
Instead, I found myself in a position so profoundly and beautifully matched for me that I knew this could have only come from God. It didn’t matter how I got there or that I took a much different route than most.
Through all those years, God never stopped using each and every circumstance to grow me toward this opportunity – toward His plan for me. I was already declared worthy and I was already chosen. For motherhood, for this, for now.
Now 4 years later, I’ve learned some valuable lessons about identity and labels.
When God declares us worthy, it’s not up for discussion.
When God gives us a new identity, He calls us to embrace it, believe it and own it.
When God chooses us, He always makes a way.
My friend, are you wrestling beneath the weight of self-imposed labels? Have you made choices that make you feel unworthy and unchosen? Are you allowing the world to place labels over your life that simply don’t belong in light of God’s declarations of who He says you are?
Often the greatest roadblock to walking in the freedom of chosen and worthy is US. Our shame, our labels and our unbelief.
Often the greatest roadblock to walking in the freedom of chosen and worthy is US #ChosenandWorthy #Identity #Imposter @crystaltwaddell Click To Tweet
But when we make the conscious and sometimes daily choice to believe in God’s favor over us and His unfailing love for us, we begin to experience an identity steeped in unconditional love and confidence grounded in the truth of God’s word.
We can stand tall, moving forward in whatever path God calls us because we know He is ordering our steps. He is making a way for the work He began in us.
He’s using every little piece of our life’s puzzle because we’ve been chosen and declared worthy in and for Him.
For you are a people holy to the Lord your God. The Lord your God has chosen you to be a people for his treasured possession, out of all the peoples who are on the face of the earth. -Deut. 7:6
Crystal is an advocate of living outside of comfort zones as a means to unlocking hidden potential and experiencing God’s wild and uncontainable love. She writes on combining a little bit of intention with a lot of passion to create an overwhelming legacy of hope. She is the proud mother of a Professor of History, a Worship Pastor and a soon-to-be Biologist and also loves fresh markets, lattes and all things French.
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