Life has taken on a slower version of myself. A much slower version. No hidden super woman cape these days. Recently my health took a significant turn for the worse. It snuck up on me. Knocking my knees right out from under me. Leaving me wrestling with a fear I had begun to believe I had conquered.
The Fear of Disapproval
I don’t know when it started. Maybe it was at birth. That deep-seated need to make those around me happy. I needed to see a smile to feel okay. The frowns – the looks of disapproval made my heart drop heavily into the pit of my stomach.
Whether it was at home or at school, the guiding force of my life was approval.
Growing up – sports, activities, friends, relationships and work. It never changed.
hard could I work?
much could I do?
could I hold onto everyone’s approval of me?
Approval addiction lead me down roads I can hardly believe were me. Moldinginto what others needed, I didn’t know the value of
Performance was necessary to deserve love. And sadness of the holes within my heart gripped my spirit way too often …
Today I am guest posting at Cord of 6! My friend, Valerie, has been hosting a series all about fear. Fear stops us in our tracks and keeps us stuck. I am so thankful she decided to tackle this crippling tactic of the enemy and I am honored to be joining her today! The fear I’m writing about? Well … it’s the fear of disapproval and my journey toward finding freedom from approval addiction! So click here to follow me over to her resource-filled site where I will share with you what happened to me because I found my value in the approval of others. Maybe, just maybe, it will resonate with you.
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